Happy new year!

Once upon a time…

So, another story is completed and the year is gone, making us an year wiser. New is always intercepted as good. A time for retrospection. To think about the bundle of memories the past year left with us.

When we think about it, we realize the things we achieved, the plans that went fulfilled, the ones that didn’t. The bucket list keeps growing, the elements being ticked off. So many memories in such less time. We meet people, we travel places, we see things. Some bonds grow stronger, some weaken. New people walk into our lives, some get left behind.

A new year gives a sense of freshness. You seek for fresh starts. There is something long pending on your resolution list, you try to make sure it’s done by the end of this year. You hope for a better time, you regret for what’s left undone. You plan and regret and then plan some more. Seconds to minutes to days to month, and wooosh, the year is gone. You don’t remain the person you were then. The last year seems so much older, the new one like a teenager.

So, as the new year sets in, lets hope for a better time. Lets try to get that pending item off the list. Lets add some new ones. Lets meet new people, travel someplace we have never been before. Finish up the book you left uncompleted. Lets try to plan less, do more. Lets not be settled or stuck and make things happen! For those who couldn’t get what they always wanted, lets just hope a little bit more. For the happy ones, lets continue to be awesome.

Let the new year add up some more memories, let it make you wiser and happier. Lets make the best of the time we got. Lets start the year with one of Steve Jobs quotes: ‘Stay hungry, Stay foolish’.

Here’s to a few firsts and a few lasts,
Here’s to a new beginning,
A fresh start,
And an adieu to the past!

Stay awesome. Stay great. A very happy 2k15 🙂




When I first saw you,
It was nothing less than a dream,
To see your smile,
All day long it would seem

Those eyes,
How they took my breath away,
Lost in them often,
For hours I would stay

I fell in love with that face,
And the sound of your laughter,
I wish things could stay,
But nothing lasts long and after

I would remember the hugs and the pats,
I would miss the care that you always laid,
And most of all I would miss your support,
When no problem seemed difficult when you said

So, I wish for once,
In this life or another,
If only for once,
We could be,
Together.. 🙂



When you needed a hand,
I was there to hold you,
When you needed an ear,
I was there to listen too,

I was there to watch you laugh,
And to see you cry,
I was there to tell you to let it go,
And sometimes to give it another try,

I was there when you needed someone,
To talk to till late in the night,
I was the nice guy to see you on the phone,
With your guy, while I consoled myself that you were happy though I lone,

I told you things will be okay,
When you got afraid of the dark,
I told you that no problem was so big,
That you couldn’t make the walk.

I was there with you,
But I guess things start to end somewhere,
And it’s hard to let you go.

But far in a place,
I know you will be happy and high,
With your guy, I will be a faded memory of June,
For once I loved you,
But things end,
And I will end too.. soon,

And if you do remember me,
I hope it brings you a smile,
For, when you asked how long I shall be there for you,
I said, forever,
Because when I needed someone,
You were there for me, forever too. 🙂


Imagine your favourite food kept on a table. It can be a chocolate, a candy or anything you wish to be. You are down to the last piece and still you crave for the last one the same way as you have craved for each one of them. Now, imagine the effort you put to resist eating the last one, because you want to savour it for the next day. Such strong effort is hard to get by. But, what happiness it brings when you open up the packet next to find one still left, lying still there.

Life sometimes behave the same way. The things you want the most are the things which are difficult to get. And no matter how much you crave for it, sometimes you just have to bring out the strongest of effort and savour it. Maybe, because the longing somehow gives you a greater pleasure than even having it by your side.

There are people in your life, you are so sure to be with. You love everything in them. Their smiles, their face, their cute nose, their smell, their voice. And still somehow you can’t be with them. Sometimes, people are just not meant to be. The longing sure gives you heartache, but somehow the happiness to be with them in the current moment is greater than the easy option of running away.

Somehow, life has taught me so many things. Some have been easy and some have been hard to learn. One such thing I learnt was to worry less about the future and live more in the present. Sure, the future is what you should think about. You know something is impossible to happen and the easy option is to just run away from everything. Easy it is, ain’t it? But what about the present? You love a person, you love being with them and though it’s not going to last forever, do you part ways. Nothing last forever. And the sad thing is that, generally it’s the good things which end soon. But is it fair to live in the fear that some things will end soon? Why not enjoy the present?

Happiness is overrated. But isn’t it the pain that makes us value the happiness in life? People say letting go is the toughest thing in life. I say it’s the easiest thing. The tough thing will be to stick by, knowing that things will end soon, knowing the pain when that happens, and still being happy in the moment and whatever is left in it.

It’s easier said than done. It’s hard to live in the moment without being worried about the future. But, somehow I have learnt to appreciate the smaller things which give happiness. I have tried to live in the present. And I know it’s not going to last forever, but somehow I feel, isn’t the short smile worth the efforts? Because, when the moments end, these smiles are going to be remembered. And these smiles, will be savoured in life, forever. 🙂

Start of a phase

It is hard to believe that just 2 months ago I was that careless college kid who sleeps at 4 in the morning, only to wake up 1 in the afternoon. Now, I am this scared person who is afraid to sleep beyond 1 in the night, scared of waking up late for his office.

I am this frustrated person who is afraid of his own words and actions. A person, no one would like to be. I am stuck in front of my laptop for 8 hours, the feel of being in cage becoming more surreal as the days beckon. I feel suffocated. But, that’s how life has become now. I get frustrated with small things, that free kid is begging to be alive again. But again, there are phases and these phase tend to start and end at some point of time.

I don’t feel like writing anymore or reading stuffs. The monotonous life has dawned on the carefree one somehow.

Today, I had a meeting in the evening. I left my office on my bike. I met with a slight drizzle on the way. I had my earphones plugged in. It had been a long time since I have been this way. It felt like the old times. It felt nice that sometimes we do appreciate the fact that even the smallest of things can bring happiness. And somehow, in that smokey traffic and blaring horns, I smiled again. The kid was welling to be alive again. And, as I zipped past the huge array of cars and bikes, I felt free. 🙂



The good and the bad

Someone told me once, “No one is good or bad, it is all about the circumstances.” Today I wonder how apt the line is. People say you can know someone in the first meeting. But how complicated is the thing is that, it is only after a variety of situations, you get to know who the real person is. People act differently in different moments at different time. I read somewhere “7 billion people in this world, 14 billion faces.” Saving the generalisation, it can be termed true to some extent. But are people really two-faced? How do you coin someone as good or bad?

How often have you assumed someone as bad and later doubted your own assumption? People bitch behind other’s back. But no one really knows the answer to the reason why a certain person acted in a certain way. Never judge another person until you have walked two miles in his shoes. People tend to act in the way that benefits them. Then again, there are selfless persons, for sure.

So many a times, I have assumed a person to be in a certain way, only to be surprised the way things actually pan out. I have refrained from talking to few people on the ground of them being too absurd only to find out later about how humble they actually are. Somehow, life becomes so complicated that we actually start looking things the way we want to. If our assumption says that a person is bad, even his good deeds start irritating.

I have had a few of such revelations. All I understood is that a book should never be judged by its cover. It is such an illusion to judge a person through assumptions. Open the book, and you will realise how beautiful the story can turn out to be. 🙂

Screwing up

There are moments in your life when you wish you had a time machine. Time is an abstract concept. The mere value of time is realised when we are past the moment. You do things that you know you are going to regret for the rest of your lives.

You try to achieve something. You put efforts in it. You nurture your dream. You work hard for so long. And then, somehow, even though trivial, something is enough to screw up the whole thing. You wish you could go back in time, un-screw up those things. You wish you could have done certain things in a certain way, or hadn’t done the things at all.

No one wants to hold regrets. Some are careful enough to tread with caution, and there are people like me, who tend to screw up almost all the good things in life. And the worst part is that the regrets seldom seem to subside. It stays there in the heart.

I could think over what happened, frame by frame, trying to think about the things that went wrong. I have screwed up so many friendships and relationships, just when I thought that things were starting to get perfect. I guess, life really doesn’t allow for complacency. I tell myself, ‘no, this won’t happen again’, and then again, there I am, BAM, in the same situation.

And the worst part is that there is no way I can make things normal. They get getting worse and worse till the point that the mere concept of existence starts looking fake.

I really need to organise my thoughts for now. I know, someday or the other I would. Maybe, as you grow up, the room for complacency starts getting smaller and smaller. And that’s how life is going to be, I guess. 🙂